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2018 August 27th [18:43] Kim: I ed EMDT at the very end of October last year, right before all my issues with Sync really began to escalate. It was Serenniel who'd asked me to and for quite a while we were very close friends, we spoke every day, discussed personal problems etc, and more, let's say private subjects. Now it's no secret Tom and Serenniel are/were close. My second ever event in NODO was BAAAE, in which I had an incident with Tom. In the end it was put down to lag but we stopped speaking over it, which upset Serenniel as she was friends with the both of us. So the weeks go by and my issues with Sync exploded, spilled in to EMDT and Serenniel's stream chat, but in the end it was dealt with, although yeah, like discussed earlier it had lasting effects, but for the most part it was done. Around... mid-late feb, EMDT started playing Minecraft together, again, me and Tom had an issue, so I did something petty like planted giant trees in random places and broke a sign or something. The result of that was the server host went a bit OTT in dealing with it and decided the best way was to roll back the server. Well they fucked it up and it resulting in them having to restore the server which took a couple of days. Because of this I was blamed, people were destroying things I'd done and as a result, I went to Baron, who ignored me. I then went to Serenniel who exploded at me, asking if I tried to piss her off on purpose etc, so we fell out completely. I think I was removed from EMDT for a few hours while everything cooled down, then I came back. It was mostly calm, but after that point, me and Serenniel ceased to be friends in any capacity. [18:43] Kim: So this was the end of feb. Moving on things sort of simmered down between me and Tom, me and Serenniel still went on avoiding eachother for the most part, with me trying to be friendly and just getting nothing in return. A month or so goes by, and I think it was Broughcar or something came around on FiveM. Initially I signed up and was excited, but after seeing the behaviour of the hosts and other high ranking of the PH discord towards slower/newer people, I pulled out, wanted nothing to do with it. So time went on and it came to the day of Broughcar. I was taking part in another event or there was a stream on or something, but I watched Broughcar from the perspective of someone involved, and the behaviour from said people towards those slower than them was honestly disgusting, so I was talking to Baron about it, who agreed, but then I made the

mistake of airing my feelings about it to said people, which caused a large argument in PH's Discord which was quickly shut down. Later on during a Serenniel stream, the other parties involved then began to talk about it there, which escalated again until it was stopped. I was super down about it, just wanted it gone and it seemed like it was. 'til the next morning, I was airing my feelings on EMDT's discord, when said parties again came in looking to reignite the fires from before, and they did. In the end it was shut down, I was temp banned, the other parties were banned, it was over. Except that during all this, Tom had come online and decided for whatever reason to side with the other parties, digging up old issues and further escalating the issue. That was eventually resolved, Tom left EMDT's discord and returned a few days later, at which point we continued to ignore eachother, save for a few niggling comments, mostly from my part which we have since discussed and I have apologised for. [18:44] Kim: As before things went on as per usual. I'd try talk to Serenniel, get little or nothing in return, then give up for a couple weeks, me and Tom would ignore eachother. Roll around to early-mid May, and Kloden's Le Mans event was officially announced, along with the teams and such. During this, it was noted that a banned member of the community, Combo, was listed as being on a team with other of Sync, I think Prismide and Viggo. After being approached by Kloden about it, knowing of our past issues, initially I was fine with him. It wasn't my event so it wasn't for me to say if he should be a part of it or not. but after being approached by more people and further discussion, I was swayed to in with others in to saying we would not race with Combo in Le Mans. Everything fell apart after that, the Sync team pulled out, then others, then eventually all of Sync together. This led Kloden to cancel the event completely and become inactive. I take part of the blame, as well as a large group of people assuming the direct cause was me, plastering the comments on a video serenniel made for Kloden to express how she felt about the situation with vague blame and insults towards me (which people have later itted were meant for me). The result of which was a lot of upset and angry people, one of them being me. I chose to pin blame on Sync for their walkout of the event, expressing so in #RacingSchool on EMDT, but immediately deleted it. Evidently it was visible long enough for multiple people to complain to Baron about it, as well as causing myself to enter in to an argument with Steve. While I haven't spoken directly to Steve since, I can understand why

he'd not wish to speak further, as in my upset state, I pinned a lot of blame on Sync and had thrown around rumours about the group and as fact, again, also wrong. For all this, I was again temporarily banned from EMDT. [18:44] Kim: At this point, Baron had expressed to a and at the time, friend of mine, that it was over for me, I was out of EMDT for good. Now I don't know the specifics of what happened next but I'll do my best to sum it up. I went to this EMDT and friend in order to vent about what had happened and basically have a shoulder to cry on. At this point I joked that I could show compromising messages/pictures to people known to have clashed with Baron in the past. Again, this was not meant seriously, I'll attach a screenshot of said convo after this paragraph. The took this as a serious threat, and informed Baron that I had plans to blackmail both he and Serenniel if I was to ever be banned from EMDT indefinitely. I say again, this was a joke, this was not a threat, this was not meant to be serious, it was a joke. Either way, Baron was informed which somehow lead to a discussion in which it was decided I was to be allowed back. I don't know any other details on that so I won't speculate. [18:44] Kim: Around a month, or a little longer went by when another event took place, the first round of TEPCOTT, all seemed fine. In this time, I had managed to make peace with Combo, Prismide and a few others such as Janx. We talked about past issues and agreed that while they happened and may not always be forgiven, they were in the past, and it's in the past where they should stay. TEPCOTT came around and the race seemed fine, my sleeping was completely wrecked at this point so I woke up and instantly hopped on to GTA. During the race, I was involved in an incident with Prismide which resulting in being unable to achieve the result I was hoping for, so at that time I decided to leave the race, go back to bed and be done with TEPCOTT. After the race, Prismide had messages me wishing to apologise for the incident, to which I responded by being dismissive and rude, not wishing to discuss it, so there it ended. I was pretty angry but I felt best to just bury it all and forget the day had happened, that was until later on, when I'd discovered that Tom, who I was still on unfriendly with, had finished in 2nd place, much higher than I was expecting. Call it jealousy, mixed with a lack of sleep, medication, anger and frustration, but I chose to expression my displeasure with this result. I'd reacted snarkily and sarcastically as he spoke

about how proud he felt and how well he had done, as well as referring to him as a "smug cunt" in the stream chat of xLas. [18:44] Kim: Whether told I'd said this or he'd seen it for himself, not that it matters, Tom became, understandably, quite upset. He vented these feeling in to the EMDT discord channel without being all too specific and I thought that was that. I was later asked by Baron if I'd spoken to Tom at any point, to which I said no, not directly. He then mentioned Tom had become upset at some point earlier that night and if I knew anything about it, I said no, but that I assumed it's because of what I'd called him in the streamchat of xLas. I'll be honest, I wasn't remorseful. At this point I felt me and Baron were pretty close friends, we'd usually have a casual chat or a moan to eachother almost daily, but for the three days following these events, he'd barely said a word to me. Streams seemed fine, but outside of that he wouldn't talk to me. I continued to try and get a response and on the following Wednesday, my birthday, he did. All seemed normal, til later that night. After the stream, I noticed a number of discord channels vanish from my sidebar, and received this message.

[18:44] Kim: This came as a shock to me and I was upset, but I tried to remain calm over the next few days, we spoke a little but eventually I received no reply. As time went on I began to look for answers, to which I turned to my at the time friend and within EMDT, while they did their best to establish some sort of communication in all of this, after four weeks, it went nowhere. At which point I came to an ultimatum, along the lines of "Tell me why or I'll leak all your stuff anyway", essentially threatening to commit the crime that had started all this, which obviously didn't help. Eventually the middleman wanted no part of it and I still didn't have my answer, so I dumped a handful of pictures, screenshots and messages in to a hidden channel on a friend private discord, deleted the rest from my pc, and left it at that. The issue, for me, was over. That was that. [18:45] Kim: A couple weeks went by, it all seemed to die down, I even ed in on one of the 24 hour streams as part of the GTA update, it seemed ok. We raced on FiveM as normal. It wasn't how it was before, but it was bearable, a chance to

prove myself. At this point I decided to Tom. If I was to prove I could be trusted then I'd better clear out issues that were still outstanding. So after talking to Tom, we agreed it was all dumb, that the grief wasn't worth it from either side, and we apologised to eachother. At this point we began to speak a little more casually, but events turned back to EMDT and I was greeted with this.

18:45] Kim: "The final nail in her coffin I needed" Those were Barons words. Someone I considered a close friend, who I could at least be honest with. This message was between Tom and Baron on the night of the TEPCOTT incident. Three days before I was removed from EMDT. I felt betrayed, hurt and upset. I went to Baron for answers and again got nothing. But my temper died down and I left it at that. During all this, I'd been venting my frustration in to the same discord I had used to store pictures, screenshots and chat logs I'd removed from my PC, although the venting was in a public channel, not the same hidden one. Within this Discord was a member of EMDT I wrongly assumed could be trusted, we had all wrongly assumed could be trusted. CASEMASTR. While he'd been there to offer to listen to ventings, he'd earned the trust of the servers hosts, eventually going as far enough as gaining access to the hidden channel where this sensitive information was stored. At this point, I'd forgotten about it, the issues were over, the was some sort of unsteady "peace" so to speak, although Baron had seemed very down, drained and upset. I wondered why and asked Serenniel, to which I was given the reply, "Why would I ever tell you how Baron is doing". I just wanted to know if he was okay, but fine. Later that night, CASEMSTR told Serenniel what was being kept in a hidden discord channel on a private server, but had some to some bogus conclusion as to why they were there. CASEMSTR had told Serenniel that I had been throwing them in there for all to see, which was completely false. Serenniel came to me asking if I was proud of what I'd done, or happy, something

along those lines, and in return I'd asked what I'd done. I got no clear answer and so the conversation turned to what happened to us as friends, which she didn't keep civil. I was told to see a therapist, that she never owed me any "friendship", not that I ever implied she did. [18:46] Kim: Afterwards, CASEMSTR had gone around in PM's asking people known to be close to me or that talked to me often, including friends and likely others who have kept such info to themselves. Of course this all found it's way back to me, and CASEMSTR was banned from all communities relating to said people, to which he reacted negatively, choosing to vent towards a person who was communicating with me. Lie after lie after lie was told, mostly about me and those closest to me. It seemed like a none issue until the harassment from this person overflowed in to public areas. Taking jabs at one of my friends in particular, to which they became very upset on multiple occasions. I'd asked them to stop a number of times, but instead they continued. Eventually, I sent all the evidence of CASEMSTR's harassment of myself and my friends over all this to one of the s of EMDT. Soon after, during a race on FiveM, Baron believed I'd pushed him, in which case he started to complain, which lead a member of the community previously thought to have no knowledge or involvement in any of these issues call for me to be kicked/banned for it. [18:46] Kim: I it, I sent them a PM telling them to "Suck a dick, suck up". Immature, I know, think what you will of it. What came next was them bragging in Baron's stream chat that, "That group", (being myself and my friends who had all been branded liars by baron earlier on in a response to false information CASEMSTR had been feeding him during my ventings weeks before in a supposedly private discord channel), had marked him, and that we were now out to get him. They continued on about it, leading Baron to again refer to "liars trying to ruin his life by destroying his stream career", after which I PM'd said person from before, sending them the screenshot of Baron and Tom talking the day of the TEPCOTT incident, accompanied with, "Liar, am I" And so it died down, again. I was told things were being discussed in the EMDT discord, so I used an alternate to see what was being discussed, to find not much of anything. Until the next morning when an announcement popped up from Serenniel, seen here.

[18:46] Kim: "hey everyone, this is something i hoped i would never have to do, but as it goes, the time has come

a while ago prominent community member kim was banned, to many seemingly out of the blue. unsurpising, really, as kim was super active and a name most here in this discord knew. over time, kim also became a person both baron and i considered a close friend, sharing personal issues and ing each other. however, it would soon become clear there was a few issues community wise. repeated outbursts, and despite repeated efforts to work with kim to have those incidents not happen, it soon became apparent that wasn't happening. for anyone else, your time in the community would have been over. but we loved the good side of kim, and so did many others, so we were way more lenient than with anyone else

however, as far as we could see it, after several months of trying to work with kim, things were going no where and after yet another incident, we decided that we do not want that kind of behavior and banned her. at this point, the personal friendship was pretty much over as i personally felt like my wishes for the how we act in this community wasn't respected by kim baron and i talked a lot. we agreed banning was the right course of action, and maybe even could help in bringing kim back in after a while if we saw that things were going better. like a cooldown. that hope died as soon as we learned that kim threatened not only me but mainly baron to spread personal information shared with her in pms and otherwise. she was blackmailing us, using conversations had about other people in the community, (for example frustration outlets with a friend about other people as one can have), actual personal details, pictures and even intimate stuff which obviously would be awkward if became public [18:46] Kim: so at this point, someone who was previously considered a close friend and community member was now literally blackmailing us to get back in to emdt and/or keep her community position elsewhere in gta communities. the amount of messages we've gotten about things thats been untrue said behind our backs or in pms has gotten to a level where i personally wanted to just disappear

completely. having one person you once considered a friend go around and not only threaten to compromise your personal details, but also spread literal lies hurts. it hurts, thats what it does. ive been angry and ive been sad but most of all confused, wondering what i did wrong to get into this position so thats where were at now. baron and i initially wanted a path where kim returned to the community, as did many others i know. but that door is obviously closed forever now, for better or worse. its been hard to "be alone" about this knowledge, feeling like the bad guys for banning, since from an outside pov, you wouldnt really understand. whatever youve heard that we did or didnt do in pms or elsewhere, please just us and talk to us rather than piecing together shards of truth and falsities on your own with that said, thank you all for being here, youre all exceptional and even though recent events have made me question why i do this, i wouldnt have it any other way serenniel and baron" So I laughed it off, I was called a liar yet again and was accused of blackmailing them yet again, all on false information provided to them by CASEMSTR. Until this morning, when I discovered that upon the request of an un named person, I was banned from PH's FiveM discord. [18:47] Kim: If anyone has any questions, would like any screenshots to provide proof to anything said here, or anything else related, feel free to ask here or give me a PM. [18:47] Kim: I'm making all of this public to prove that no, I am not a liar as Baron and Serenniel have branded me [18:48] Kim: I will not be called a liar. [18:48] Kim: They have accused me of horrible things with no proof, which has lead to me being harassed, insulted, and removed from communites unrelated to any of these issues, due to the influence of Baron and Serenniel. [18:49] Kim: They have pointed blame at me without providing any platform to defend myself, so I am using this as my platform.